Wednesday Weigh-in: Hanging my Head in Shame

219.2 this morning.
That is actually better than my 221.6 from Monday.

I went on a mini vacation this weekend to a winter festival in our area.

I actually did not eat as much as I though I would because I wound up making most of the meals.  But I snacked a lot more than I usually do and drank a few cocktails.  I also didn't drink nearly as much water as I usually do. 

The caveat to all of this, is that I walked all over the place on Saturday and Sunday lugging around a toddler, so I'm not sure what is going on with my body.

To much yo-yoing is my problem. I eat fine Sunday evening through Friday evening and then it's all downhill from there.  I even work out all of those days too.

Urrrrggggg.....I hate this so much. Most of the time I feel so along with this struggle, because my family brings so much junk in the house and eat it.  I thought I had everyone on board with keeping the crap out of the house, but there it sits taunting me.

I read all of these weight loss journeys from other people who are doing so awesome, but it seems that they have people supporting them, which may make it easier.

I started this blog to hope to connect with other people like me and I feel like I'm just writing this for my own venting (which may not be horrid). 

I still seriously miss running, and I feel that it would pull me out of this rut.  Stupid snow won't go away soon enough.

Wednesday Weigh in 0430 Edition

Ok so I didn't really write this at 0430, but that's what time I got up and weighed myself.  School started this week so in order to get my workout in, work, go to school, and spend time with the lil dude I have to get up at the ungodly hour at least 3 days a week. Eeeeeep!!

217.6

I'm going back in the right direction. Even with my McDonalds/Pork Chops/Potato Pancakes Faturday.

I recently started using myfitnesspal, to keep track of what I was eating. It's amazing what a few numbers will do to curb you from eating certain things and going over your budget. Or realizing my Faturday's are way to fattening.  Good thing I found out my Whipped Cream vodka isn't so bad when mixed with Diet Coke!

Today was a good round off of workouts. 20 minute elliptical, 10 Stair Stepper, and 15 minute stationary bike.  My goal was 20 of each, but my time was not planned well for making it to work on time.

Jillian is still kicking my butt 4 days a week, and I love it.  I think this current phase I'm on I will probably add a week, because its hard and I still 'cheat' by doing the modified version. So I'm hoping another week with the actual version of the exercises will work better.  It's only going to get harder.

Disappointment

Wednesday weigh in....
     218.6

Grrrrrr.... Story of my life for the last 6 months fluctuating from 215-218 back and forth like see-saw.

It's been 3 weeks since my last fast-food meal.  I had desert Sunday night like I do every Sunday.

So what's going to give?

Especially since I was up for like 4 hours late Monday night and early Tuesday morning vomiting and feeling like complete dog crap. Hardly ate anything yesterday.

I don't get it sometimes. I've kicked up the workouts, and doubled them 3 times a week.

I know it takes time, but I don't have a lot of it with my military career on the line.

I'm not about to resort to taking those quick weight loss supplement's and eff up my body anymore than it is. I don't want a temporary solution.

Also, the weather isn't going higher than 25 for the last few weeks, so the snow is sticking around.
I want to run, be free, and just feel different. I'm tired of being cooped up inside!!

Hopefully this week will be better. I can only hope.

Weigh-in Wednesday

This morning's scale read: 217.0, that is only a 0.8 lb weight loss.

It's something, and I'll take it for now. Reflecting on the last week and two fast food excursions at drill this past weekend probably kicked my butt.  I'm also trying to kick the snacking habit, since we still have some junk in our house. 

I think in a week or two that will dwindle down, now I'm focusing on keeping my workouts in check.

Right now my plan is Body Revolution by Jillian Michaels donated to me by my best friends wife! Three of those days I also hit the gym on base anywhere from 30 minutes to and hour.

Once the snow melts in about a month or so I'm getting back into running.  I'm itching for a run so bad right now, I even ran on the treadmill this morning.  That lasted of about a mile before I was thinking "eff this!"  I'm an outside runner, I love the scenery and the scent of fresh air.  Staring at a TV and smelling sweaty ass, is not my thing.

I'm also doing fatchicktofitchick's happygluteyear challenge.  Wall sits daily to improve your time for the month of January.  If you are instagram #happygluteyear and you will get some encouragement from her!!

Military Ridiculousness

Weigh-in tomorrow. A little nervous.

This first phase is starting to be easy, which is why I'm glad this program ups the workouts every two weeks.  This means next week I kick it up a notch.  More so than this week where I'm adding in an extra 30-45 minutes a day for three days. 

I'm anxious for it to warm up.  Dumped 6 inches of snow yesterday in Idaho.  Which means a week or two before the snow disappears enough for me to run.

In other news:  the military has ridiculous standards.

I've said it before and I'll say it time and time again  until I'm done with the military or they are done with me.

The military requires you to weigh a certain amount, for my height 68" and my age almost 31, I need to weight 166. Really? I would look like a horrid, stick figure.  If you don't meet the weight requirement, then they do a Body Fat Percentage based on certain measurements.  For women they measure neck (I have ridiculous small neck), the waist at the smallest point, and the hips at the most prominent part.

Hello!!!  I have classic hourglass figure (looks better when I'm in shape).  So the measurements SUCK big time.

My theory is that if you can pass your PT test, with a certain score (say 200/300) and no injuries the weight shouldn't be a big deal. I rocked my PT test in October.

All complaints aside, I know I need to lose more weight, but for goodness sake it puts an incredible amount of stress on me. Sometimes I wonder.

See you tomorrow for weight update!

I'm Alive?

Check... 1...2...3  Check *tapping the mike*
Is this thing still on? Can anyone still hear me?

I'm still here, I'm still fighting the battle of the waist line. Where have you been?

I have found myself over the last week or two attempting to start writing on this blog again.  Part of me didn't want to because I'm not sure anyone reads this anymore, and part of me just doesn't want to admit partial failure.  Yes ladies and gents, I'm a bit of a failure.

My weight as of yesterday on the scale was 217.8.  I have been fluctuating between the 212-217 mark since about June last year.  This means that although I lost weight and I was down to 209, it came back.

I kept telling myself I was doing everything right and that I should be losing weight.  Reflecting on the last year I realized that running doesn't fix everything, and doesn't help lose weight if that is the only thing you are doing.  Don't get me wrong I was not pigging out on cheeseburgers, cakes, and soda daily; but I was giving in to those temptations at least weekly. Bowl of Ice cream here, cookies there. Uggggg...  My problem was that I would be good ALL day long but once I was home and lil man was down for the count I would give in, because I needed to relax and eating helped me do that.

I ran almost 400 miles last year, and I'm so incredibly proud of that.  I accomplished five 5k's, a 10K, and a Half Marathon.  I plan on repeating that this year.  But I also plan on incorporating weights and weight training instead of just running 4-5 days a week.  I've been getting my butt kicked by Jillian off and on the last 3 weeks, and have committed myself to completing the whole 90 day program starting Monday (I actually started yesterday but I tacked on half a week as I didn't want to wait to start).  I also am posting my pictures of myself below, to keep me accountable. They aren't pretty so don't scroll more if you don't want to see me in my partial birthday suit glory.

Another accomplishment for last year is that I finally quit smoking just after my son turned 2.  It feels amazing and I actually feel better and not so draggy anymore.

I really want to get below 200 this year. I'm not giving myself a time limit, because I think it will add less stress.

Part of my stress is I found myself back on the Army Weight Control Program this past October. Which has jeopardized my military career.  I actually had to have a discharge packet put through to kick me out of the Army because I did not meet the standards again (I missed it by 1 freaking inch, 1 percentage of body fat).  Part of me wished that they had kicked me out, because I feel without that added stress I would lose weight easier.  Lets face it I'm a working soldier/student/wife/Mom/and partial caretaker.  I have a lot of stress, and something has to give.  Hopefully I can finally dig deep and find that motivation to get this done.  I'm mostly fit, but I'm still fat. I want to be comfortably me and fit.

I find inspiration in people like; Evelyn, Mama Laughlin, and, fatchicktofitchick.  I read their blogs (at least when they do blog) daily.  These women are freaking awesome and have lost so much weight, and I keep telling me I will be like that someday.

So in reviving my blog, I hope that I can inspire other people. Or at least just keep myself accountable.