Is There Really a Light at the End of the Tunnel?

Someone please tell me that there is a light at the end of this weight loss tunnel?

I am in serious fail mode.

I have not worked out in about a week 10 days. Unless you count the many rounds around the Zoo, Mall, Discovery Center, Boise Penitentiary, and the neighborhood.

I ate like a fat kid for those 10 days. I ate anything and everything I have been avoiding since January. I drank soda like it was going out of style, and drank maybe half the amount of the water I usually did. 

Did I mention the 6 Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies yesterday?

I somehow conveniently forgot to do my weigh in for the last two Fridays, because I was afraid to see what it would tell me.

My stomach has not been very forgiving either.  Many mad dashes to the bathroom at random inopportune times.

I told myself I would get back on the weight loss "wagon" today.  So to try and freak myself out even further? I weighed myself, what is my weight you ask??  218.6!  I only gained a pound or so.

Eeek!!

I need to finish this dang journey with or without anybody trying this alongside me.

I am re-establishing my goals here and now:

Make military HT/WT by October 1st

Improve my APFT Score to 220 range

Be under 200 by Cole's 1st Birthday (10/21/2011)

Maintain a healthy weight

That's it!! That's all I have left. I have redone my goals a million times, and I feel like a failure.  I can do this just have to find my balance between life, because it seems to be getting in the way.

Sometimes I feel like I'm doing all this and it's not getting me anywhere, but that is always my fail in life. Motivation is fleeting sometimes and I just have to look more into the positive.

On a good note, I wore leggings the other day with a top just covering my butt and I felt the thinnest I had in a long time.