Military Career at Stake

I didn't weigh myself today, I didn't want a blatant reminder that I haven't worked out since last Monday.

I seriously messed up my back last Tuesday, and I found it hard to even pick up my son, or even bend over to pick up his toys.  It's better, but not great, so I'm just going to get back into the workout thing and pray that it doesn't act up to bad. 

I got a gentle reminder that my year of leeway in not passing weight is approaching in June.  For those of you who don't know, to be in the military you have to meet certain physical fitness standards.  I can pass my Physical Fitness test, twice actually.  I just can't seem to meet the military weight standards.  For my height the military says I should weigh 166 lbs.  I have NEVER met the weight standards, but seeing how not all of us have Barbie Doll figures they have a body taping system that makes up for that.

Right now I don't meet the taping standards, I have about 20 lbs or so to lose, and about 2-3% body fat to lose in order to make it.  If I don't meet the standards I will be processed for a discharge out of the military.

It's very disheartening to know that, come April I will have been in for 13 years, and to get kicked out would be devastating. Loss of benefits, loss of a job, and loss of respect for myself.

You may be asking, well why the heck aren't you trying harder??  I don't know. I feel like I'm giving it 95%, which isn't good enough, but at least I'm trying.

It's very hard for me to live with this hanging over my head.  It makes me feel like the NCO that shouldn't get any respect.  It's ridiculous.

My goals this week are to get back into working out and increasing my time to 45 minutes of cardio/strength at least 5 days a week.  I plan on increasing my run distance to 3 miles come Wednesday the 1st of February.  I also am planning on watching my dinner time intake, because that is my weakness.  I'm usually starving by then so I eat to much and blow the hard work from the entire day.

Wish me luck. I need to kick this plateau in the Arse!!

Down For the Count

I still didn't lose any weight last week. Bummer.

I think it's a portion control thing at dinner and on the weekends.  I tend to get out of hand when it comes to dinner because I'm usually starving from watching my portions all day. 

Weekends are my nemesis, I find it's easier to workout, but it's not easy eating.

That is my goal this week, maintain portion control.

Unfortunately I tweaked my back yesterday so my workouts this week will probably be nil until it feels better.

Lifting one tiny little suitcase into the back of the car and WHAMO my back pops and I feel searing white hot pain.  Needless to say it's not fun trying to tote around 26+ lb son around the house and up the stairs when you can barely stand straight.

It hurts something fierce!

It's better today than it was yesterday, hopefully by the weekend I'll be able to workout again. 

I'm getting old!

Good luck to everyone who is on their own weight loss journey.

Eating is my Nemisis

This is totally going to be a whiny and complaint filled post.

First, I am glad that it snowed because we needed the moisture.

But it sucks because I couldn't run outside today and I HATE RUNNING ON THE TREADMILL!!  Time goes by so much faster when I run in my neighborhood.  I tune out the world a lot better when I have scenery rather than the fugly guys at the gym and the TV.

Second, I hate monitoring my calorie intake.

The last three months have been glorious eating whatever and working out, helped me maintain my weight. 

Now I'm trying to lose weight again, I am reminded how much I hate monitoring my food intake.

My problem is by the middle of the day I start getting hungry, which leads to a headache, and 85% of the time leads to nausea. 

I eat 6 small meals a day, and I make sure I have protein with each meal (because the healthy gods have determined that protein helps you feel full longer).  Well that doesn't work.

An example.....  One of my favorite snacks is a piece of fruit and some cheese, anther is fruit and peanut butter.  I eat it and I kid you not 30 minutes later I'm hungry again.  I try to ignore it and chug water.  What happens??? Headache worsens and stomach gets crampy. 

Case in point, yesterday morning I was waiting for my 2 meal and I got so nauseous I actually thought I was going to throw up, and it had only been 2.5 hours since I had eaten last.

I'm at a loss as to what I do.  I get ridiculously grumpy and feel like crap.  I went to bed at 8 last night because I felt like crap and I didn't want to eat anything because I didn't wait to break the no food past 7 rule. :(

Seventeen and a Half Mile and Counting

I have discovered a new love like for running.  I have logged 17.5 miles in since the 1st of the year and I feel like I have accomplished something.  My plan is to stick to 2.5 miles for January and increase it by half a mile every month.  I haven't had to much of my usual shin splint pain, except this morning. It worries me a bit, but I will keep on trucking and hopefully it doesn't get worse.

I got up at 430 this morning to run in my neighborhood, much to my husbands disappointment.  It was hard to get my body moving this morning, and it was colder without the sunshine.  But it's nice that I have my workout, minus the strength workout, done for the day.  My husband doesn't like that I run in the dark, but I had my reflective belt and didn't have both ear buds in, just in case.  Poor guy worries about me to much, but I love that he does.

I again did not lose any weight, but I'm maintaining the 216 lbs, so I guess I should be happy I'm not gaining weight.  I know that it's my eating, and that is the hardest thing for me sometimes.  This weeks goals are to lessen the amount of processed sugar, and to not eat after 7, except for a dessert nights once a week.

I'm just going to keep on keeping on and try my hardest to not give up.  My military career depends on it.

Running Is Getting Better

I realized something pretty awesome today. For the last two weeks I have been running 2.5 miles three times a week!

So my monthly goals will increase a half a mile at the beginning of the month. This should enable me to be able to run a 5K come May pretty easily.

Maybe even a half marathon in the fall? Hmmmmmmmmm

Anyone have a team I can join for the Susan B Komen Race for the Cure?